For the Love of Sardines


Having Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, it is inevitable that your body will do some pretty wild things when you least expect it.  I mean, you always expect things to happen, but when they do they still shock the hell out of you.

The crazy part is, the second you have the food part down, the exercise and supplementation components all in place and you are feeling like you are on top of the world, that is when your body will crash after the brief moments of bliss.  You then get up, try to rest, regroup, and figure out where the problem in the system is.  Each time this happens, you are starting from square one.  Why? Because, we are getting older, facing different elements, experiencing different forms of stress, etc.

Last year a situation happened where I stopped being able to sweat.  It was incredibly uncomfortable, but it was due to a medication interaction.  It was resolved and all was well in Hillary Land.

Fast forward to a couple months ago-or more and I stopped sweating again.  Now it is just my body doing some weird stuff.  Why am I sharing this?  Well, this is my life.  This is my blog.  What I cook is real.  What I have been eating is real.  Why I have been eating what I have been eating is real.  That’s what brings me to this present moment.

My doctors and I have been trying to figure out how to get me to sweat.  It is incredibly uncomfortable and painful when I get hot.  I itch and it feels like little knives are stabbing me.  If you ever see me outside running at CrossFit Bloomfield in the early morning, it’s because it’s nice and cool outside.  The only way I am comfortable working out is when cool air is blowing on me.  It is kind of annoying, but whatever works. Right?

So what was our solution? Grumble grumble grumble bla bla bla….after 17 years of being on birth control we made the decision to get off. Why?  Maybe my body didn’t need the extra hormones after all.  Maybe at the age of 35 my body finally had enough and was starting to rebel.

So am I sweating yet?  Not exactly.  However, I am actually enjoying running.  I am having more energy throughout the daytime than I normally do which is kind of major.

The only thing that has happened which is slightly weird is that I have had this MASSIVE craving for wild caught sardines.  I want them for breakfast, lunch and dinner.  I want them in a bowl full of cauliflower rice, beets, kale or arugula, and curry powder.  It could be that my body is craving the extra calcium.  Who knows.  Normally super salty things bother me, but the salty sardines don’t bother me the way they could have bothered me in the past.

So what else have I done to seek out some calming practices in hopes that I can sweat?  Meditation, a Musar class (ask me about it, because it is super awesome!) and to rest when my brain and body need to be done for the day.

What is the point of this post? To let you know how important it is to listen to your body. I am constantly in a state of figuring out what the right path for me to take is.  It changes on a regular basis and I need to constantly remind myself that THAT IS OKAY!  Being resistant to my body’s journey will only add unnecessary stress.  I urge you to be your own advocate and embrace the messages your body sends you.

That, my friends is my Truth.


Sardines with beets, cauliflower with pepitas, carrots, celery and curry powder and kale on the bottom


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1 Response to For the Love of Sardines

  1. Amy Hammer says:

    Beautiful my sweet girl❤️❤️❤️

    Amy Hammer Sent from my iPhone



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